Oh, no. I'm so sorry to hear that. If you're really serious, GET HELP FAST! Call up your therapist. DO SOMETHING! Please, please, for your sake and for all of us...Get help. I hope the program will help you. And PLEASE keep us posted. You're getting me REALLY worried! Let us know if you calmed down. Thanks. Good night. Sweet dreams (and a sweet life)!
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I'll tell you the truth. I had major plans for the next few weeks and someone really nasty shattered them. All because of my dam ED. It just made me feel horrible since I've been living for this for this entire year so now I feel like I'm pointless. NOTHING to live for. But I just got a hopefully good job so we'll see. My therapist couldn't really help me today-I was too emotionally drained to talk. A bit calmer now though so good night!
observanteen-is the program only for anxiety? I more have issues with depression (also with anxiety though)...? Thanks!Posted 3 years ago # -
Wow, sounds like a major challenge. But I don't think it's worth dying for, don't you think? Why do you think you've got NOTHING to live for? Who'll keep this thread alive??:)
The program is for depression as well, although it might night be sufficient enough. Perhaps you'll also need a coach. But I'd suggest you try the program first.
Good night! Thanks for sharing your problem with us. Good luck! Hatzlacha with your new job! (Who knows, maybe it'll be even better than the original one..)Posted 3 years ago # -
well...good morning :) feeling a drop better. Hopefully time will heal. and observanteen-will definitely check out the program! Thanks a lot! One question-can I do it at the same time as my other treatment?
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Good! So happy to hear. You can definitely do it along with your other treatment. She simply guides you on how to think positively and she gives you the tools to deal with life. And this is THE cure. Their service is WONDERFUL. They treat you with such respect (they called me up after a while to ask how it's going...) Please keep me posted. Thanks!
Have a wonderful, peaceful and great Shabbos!Posted 3 years ago # -
blabla
You seem to have it the hardest during the nighttime hours; can you get support in place for yourself during that time?
(You seem to feel better in the mornings.)Posted 3 years ago # -
U r right about nights I get tired and irrational at night and overcome by emotion but sometimes the opposite
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A
Beautiful beach
Children’s excited shouts
Doing things like swimming
Eating, having picnics and sandcastles
Filled the air with a happy calmness
Going splashing in the roaring crashing waves
Heat wave beats down on the people’s faces
In this happening, sun burnt faces turn into tans
Joking and laughing and just enjoying the peaceful scenic beach
Kites flying gracefully in the air, white seagulls soaring high above.
Lounging in beach chairs, staring at the gorgeous ocean,enjoyinghashems glorious world
its like an abc poem but its ony till LPosted 3 years ago # -
Magnificent, glorious world
Nothing can compare to the simple beauty of nature
Omnipotence, seen in this marvelous wonder
Perfect in every way
Quite beautiful, watching the ocean waves crashing
Ripples and waves marking the water's surface
Students studying by the peaceful shoreline
Tourists snapping photos of the breathtaking picture
Unbelievably peaceful
Very pretty shells lining the shore
With the water's lapping sounds
Xanax in natural form
Youth building castles in the sand
Zestful boaters zooming byPosted 3 years ago # -
Music can be heard from various iPods and speakers wafting through the cool air
New footprints appear in the sand every few minutes as people come and go daily
On top of the people,high above, there are planes and helicopters flying through the clouds
Pictures being taken,smiles being captured in seconds by cameras of parents,grandparents and just people, creating memoriesi did some more thanx ayc but each line has to be one more word than the next like a has one word b has 2 words c has 3 words... so its alil harder but urs is very good! ur really talented!
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Does anyone know the rest of this great poem?
I'd rather see a sermon than hear one any day;
I'd rather one should walk with me than merely tell the way.
The eye is a better pupil, more willing than the ear;
Fine counsel is confusing, but example is always clear,
And the best of all the preachers are the men who live their creeds,
For to see a good put in action is what everybody needs.I can soon learn how to do it if you will let me see it done;
I can watch your hand in action, but your tongue too fast may run.
And the lectures you deliver may be very wise and true,
But I'd rather get my lesson by observing what you do.
For I may misunderstand you and the high advice you give,
But there is no misunderstanding how you act and how you live.Posted 3 years ago # -
The poem is by Edgar Guest
(continued)
When I see a deed of kindness,
I am eager to be kind.
When a weaker brother stumbles
and a strong man stays behindJust to see if he can help him,
then the wish grows strong in me
To become as big and thoughtful
as I know that friend to be.And all travelers can witness
that the best of guides today
Is not the one who tells them,
but the one who shows the way.One good man teaches many,
men believe what they behold;
One deed of kindness noticed
is worth forty that are told.Who stands with men of honor
learns to hold his honor dear,
For right living speaks a language
which to every one is clear.Though an able speaker charms me
with his eloquence, I say,
I'd rather see a sermon
than to hear one, any day.Posted 3 years ago # -
Thanks a lot! BTW, did you see my posts on The Rhyme Game? Please do.
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You are quite welcome. It really is beautifully written with a wonderful message.
I saw them but don't know what to make of them. Somehow I had seen the new sub after your accusations.Posted 3 years ago # -
You mean you didn't notice that they subbed you (dubbed you) Joseph for a while?
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Nope. I'd only seen that after the accusation.
Why else would I have been so dubiously dubbed?Posted 3 years ago # -
Again, they dubbed you "Joseph" BEFORE I mentioned it in my silly little rhyme. I promise. Otherwise I'd never even THINK you're Joseph. ASAIK, Joseph is anything but poetic.
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So what is your theory?
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Who says I have a theory? Some mod made a mistake, then corrected it, and I unfortunately was duped in between. It's probably nobody's fault. I just wish you realized it and dropped your grudge on me. I did apologize, though it was an innocent mistake on my part.
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OK-איך בין מוחל
So I guess you weren't the mod :)
But you know what is so odd?
Why would the mod do it
The mod certainly blew it
Who wanted to stir the pot
And took an aimless shot
Especially during the 9 days
Hope the mod mends his waysPosted 3 years ago # -
Princess: Wow. How powerful. Glad to see you decided to post your poems:)
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Thanks observanteen! Well for now i've posted this, guess it's not too personal.. there's always a first time and there's always a last! Do you read the other threads? i posted a poem i wrote on another thread for those of ya interested.. .
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"there's always a first time and there's always a last! "
Hey, I don't like the second part of your sentence..;)
I do read the other threads but haven't seen your poem. Where is it?Posted 3 years ago # -
Hey obervanteen, thanks for your comments here and there! It's always nice to get feedback.. so thanks! sorry only replying now, just been busy here.
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You're welcome:)
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Dear diary,
On your shoulder
I shed my tears
On your paper
I expressed my fears
My thoughts and dreams
With you I shared
I wept to you
While no one cared.
When I felt
Alone, scared and cold
It was you
Whom my story I told
When all was gone -
My faith, strength and pride
I always turned
Toward your side.But now is time
To fill a different page;
One that does not
Contain confusion or rage
I've come now
To share my joy
My everlasting simcha
Which no one can destroy
I've come to tell you
That my Father up there
Has never forgotten
His daughter so dear.Posted 3 years ago # -
hi guys i'm back again :)
I can't believe its reality,
it all just seems too crystal clear,
I'm so happy and so free,
this mood can't disappear.I treasure every moment,
each breath I take in deeply,
a meaningful understanding on life,
after climbing this mountain steeply.I'm not done, not recovered,
yet I've had some real life learning,
to be appreciate and acknowledged,
practice all that I was yearning.I've been so happy, spunky,
respected and commended,
I wasn't TRYING to impress,
no falsehood was intended.Hashem thank You for being so nice to me ...sometimes I thought He wasn't there
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Glad to hear, blabla:)
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Glad to hear too blabla! You write so well, keep expressing yourself in this way! Keep going, you can do it!
WOW Observantteen! You write so well.. you convey so much feeling and yes, having been through so much and coming out better and stronger.. i hope we all manage to do that!
Have a good shabbos!
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Thanks, Princess. Nice to hear from you! Have a wonderful Shabbos!
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B"H I've had a short break from the horrible depression but having severe anxiety. Hope it lasts...
Posted 3 years ago # -
blabla
What a splendid soul you are
You really are a shining star
You let us know when you felt better
In a very moving poem/letterPosted 3 years ago # -
I was going through my school stuff from last year and found some old poems dumped in that were written in the height of it.
my mind is racing,
thoughts are chasing,
my heart is fearing,
friendships tearing,
my being's burning,
insides churning,
words are stinging,
pain they're bringing,
forever binging,
always cringing,
then I'm purging,
shortly after splurging,
school's compelling,
brokenhearted yelling,
lonely and trying,
for comfort I'm crying,
confidence shrinking,
to the depths I'm sinking,
for care I'm yearning,
no one does I'm learning.Depression:
Depression's like a sword,
plunged deep, deep down,
into the depths of your soul,
and no way of survival but death.Depression's like being stranded on an island,
abandoned and alone,
with no way of survival but drowning.depression's like wearing clothing with pins,
pricking you in ever direction,
torturous pain,
with no way out but to let them in.depression's like being trapped in a fire,
a blazing, raging fire,
that burns, scorches and blisters,
with no way out but to burn alive.depression's like being in a room full fo partying,
sitting in the midst unnoticed,
not a kind soul in sight,
and there's no way out but to melt.depression's like being struck with cancer,
destroying you against your will,
with therapy like chemo, causing more pain,
and there's no way out but to succumb to its vengeance.depression's like being attacked by an animal,
a vicious, wild creature,
eating you part by part,
with no way out but to surrender.depression's like being on the train tracks,
with trains racing by and crushing you,
you're crumbling with every strike,
and there's no way out but death.Suicide:
suicide's like being swallowed whole,
in the mouth of a shark,
being bitten and chewed,
until you're DEAD.suicide's like being in the sea,
the deepest depths of the ocean,
with an iron rod weighing you down,
unable to breath, choking up water,
until you DROWN.suicide's like being strapped to a table,
surrounded by terrorists,
eager to slaughter and chop you up,
until you are in PIECES.suicide's like being stuck under books,
a gigantic pile of heavy books,
just growing heavier and bigger,
being thrown at you in every direction,
until you're CRUSHED.The world has turned against me,
misery encircles me,
suicide overtakes me,
all the people crush me.the firs burns me,
the rope entangles me,
the glass shatters me,
falling beaks me.water drowns me,
knives stab me,
doors trap me,
disease fails me.silence robs me,
being snobbed ruins me,
excluded destroys me,
everyone kills me.I have some more I'll do soon
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blabla
You see you've left the worst behind
You're exhibiting a more happy state of mind
We're all thrilled for you here in the CR
That you've accomplished so much and have come so farYou've worked hard and earned every bit of success
You're probably thanking G-d every moment, there's no excess!
Life generally comes with ups and downs
But you'll rebound more quickly & with much fewer frowns :)Posted 3 years ago # -
I'm slipping a little...a bit scared. Yes, I no realize how I grew from my challenges.
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i like dinosaurs and cheese buttons and cake
put em all together you get dinoseesonakePosted 3 years ago # -
blabla
You've slipped a little, you're a bit scared
But look how well so far you have fared
You'll bounce back quicker than ever before
Life has great things for you in store, I'm surePosted 3 years ago # -
Ayc
i can't post on the hangman thread but I think the answer is hurricane.Posted 3 years ago # -
apprehension, confusion,
fear and dread,
scared of the unknown,
I just wish I were dead.another year of school,
more nightmares to endure,
I wish I knew myself,
confident and sure.My body trembles,
chills race through,
I shake in fear,
as I start the year anew.Others dread the tests,
the homework and learning,
but I dread the social scene,
for friendships I'm yearning.I feel as though I've lost,
everything i once gained,
the happiness, assurance,
confidence I haven't maintained.Posted 3 years ago # -
blabla
Change is hard, new beginnings can cause stress
Most people will say this if they truly confess
So you are no different than others out there
Who are somewhat nervous about the new school yearYou will be" pass through with flying colors
And will be"H develop friendship with others
Just give yourself time, expect the usual ups and downs
And you'll begin experiencing yourself more smiles than frowns ;)Posted 3 years ago # -
AYC you always say such nice things, i love your posts! (if you look quite a few posts up i actually posted something i wrote! I like your comments, did i mention??! jk)
Blabla, ayc said it ... i just wanted to comment to tell you we're here for you... it IS difficult but you CAN do it!! Don't forget, you're strong! Hold on tight, hold on a little longer, it WILL get easier... it must! Don't let yourself fall back down, keep that confidence up, we all know that you are a great kid, with a lot going for you, you seem to have depth that others do not, those who are your friends are LUCKY. Don't let yourself put you down!
We're rooting for you!Posted 3 years ago # -
You might not believe it but your encouragement really has helped me.
Another poem:The image flashes
I see my heart,
bleeding inside me
torn apart.the wounds so deep,
blood is splattered,
destroyed and crumbled,
in pieces its shattered.once so young,
innocent and pure,
naive, ignorant,
of good future was sure.and carefree young girl,
my life's now switched around,
I'm a heartbroken soul,
pain and misery I've found.What has happened,
to my blissful, youthful days?
my teachers and elders,
seem younger in so many ways.do they understand?
do they know pain?
have they suffered in life too?
are my cries in vain?Posted 3 years ago # -
PrincessEagle
"AYC you always say such nice things, i love your posts! (if you look quite a few posts up i actually posted something i wrote! I like your comments, did i mention??! jk)"I apologize for the oversight
Thanks for letting me set things right
I'm glad you brought it to my attention
So I could read the poem that you mentionYour poem should definitely be published
Your message that Jews not feel arbitrarily punished
With themes of hope and trust that you've cleverly woven
We should believe in the Justice and continue to davenAbsolutely LOVED this poem a ton
Don't make us wait long till the next one!(perhaps you might consider adding "seeming/apparent/obvious" in
'I let tragedies happen with no "apparent" source')Posted 3 years ago # -
hey ayc, thank you so much for your warm response!! It's a good idea to add the word "apparent" but it'll make the sentence too long.. not that it's good structure in that way anyway.. i don't think it could be published - nobody would accept it!
"Don't make us wait long till the next one!" well unless i could email to you privately i don't know about that!!
Blabla, how are you doing?Posted 3 years ago # -
PrincessEagle
"i don't think it could be published - nobody would accept it!"I respectfully disagree. It has a universal theme and is well thought out.
"unless i could email to you privately i don't know about that!!"
Editor/mods?
===============================blabla & happiest
You were concerned with the beginning of a new school year...hope it was much better than you expected.Posted 3 years ago # -
am yisrael chai, I just want to say that I've noticed across the board how warm, kind, caring and thoughtful you are. It's exceptional and it really inspires me. Thank you.
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Climbing mountains, i fully agree!! (and i think it's nice of you to say that to ayc!)
AYC - thanks ... if you follow the link you'll see that i posted on the other thread... ...Posted 3 years ago # -
I humbly appreciate your kind words.
Climbing Mountains, I don't see your profile so I can't even see where you've posted. But what I do know is that it takes one to know one!
PrincessEagle, "i don't think it could be published - nobody would accept it!
"Don't make us wait long till the next one!" well unless i could email to you privately i don't know about that!!"
I hope you are published soon and I just set up a temporary address aycamyisraelchai on the gmail's account and the mods can delete it in a bit if it goes through. In the meantime, I'm glad to see that you are keeping up with your sugar levels. Do you have any inspiring words for getting rid of the nosh for some of us noshaholics?
I saw your link, thanks!
Keep up the good work on both fronts, PE!Posted 3 years ago # -
Lol well cool! i actually posted the link just for this reason that you find a way of contacting me (i.e. i also posted email add.) ... well b.i.t soon than!
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We're up to the 7th page already!
If someone can write something about Sept. 11th, I would be very grateful.
TIA.Posted 3 years ago #
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