First, Tfilah – Daven and plead to Hashem that he should help you find your true self and your true abilities, and that he should constantly guide you in the right path, beg him to help you utilize your Koichos Hanefesh to get closer to him, through Torah and Yiras Shomayim and Midos Tovos, beg him to give you calmness, Simcha, Minuchas Hanefesh that you should succeed in your great work.
Talk to him and beg him – he’s alive and with you, he loves EVERY Yid.
Second – you gotta work, focus on your steps which are ahead of you…..
Chazak