I sympathise with you. I am someone who was born profoundly deaf (but don’t have C.I), and I don’t know sign language, relying on lipreading.
What hearing people don’t realise (and probably will never fully understand) is the tremendous social barriers deaf people have – just sitting around a table, trying to lipread the conversation is very very difficult – so for the poster above to suggest things like reading Gateway to Happiness etc is NOT the solution at this stage.
Happy to talk to you more about how I coped with friendship etc – perhaps a Moderator can pass on my email address to you?