Thanks, everyone, for your concern. Thank you, kapusta, for your words of encouragement.
I know I’m not supposed to ask why and why did it have to be…. type of questions. But, at this point, that’s really the way I feel. I know it’s so wrong and I hate myself for thinking this way. It’s just so hard not to. I wish I would wake up and see this is all a terrible nightmare. The whole situation is so painful for me and what makes it even worse is watching so many people that I care about suffer. It hurts.
~a~