Eclipse. may you see the sun shine out in your life. just like in an eclipse when everything is black and it feels like it will stay that way forever, always the sun is revealed and continues to shine. May Hashem reveal beauty, goodness and joy to you in your life and may you truly feel blessed.
I’m sure you have suffered much, but try to remember that Hashem is with you and soon the tides will turn.
on another note. hopefully Mr. X’s remarriage will let you have peace and quiet from him.
enjoy your children as they are a great blessing WHICH NOT EVERYONE IS ZOCHEH TO HAVE. count your blessings and you will feel blessed.
also, for pampering i really go for ben and jerry’s , anything very chocolaty. maybe treat yourself to something new and beautiful that you’ve beeen thinking about for a while. but don’t go over budget too much as you’ll just feel bad later. chag kasher vesameach.