brokenhearted, lost
in a world of insanity
I’m craving a break,
some peace and serenity.
I just wish I can burst
my bubble full of tears
and release all the tension
the pain and the fears.
I’m stuck in my own world,
so detached from the rest,
I’m detached from Hashem
although I know its just a test.
I didnt daven properly
and I feel just so disgusting,
I didnt acknowledge him at all,
my tiny heart is busting.
My emotions are pent up
my shoulders and back are aching
the pain is building up again
but to everyone around I’m faking.
I feel like I can’t carry on
I really can’t take it
I’ve been strangled from all sides
I don’t think I will make it.
I’m holding on to a thin thin strand
a string to attach me to a base
its slipping out, out of my grip
as I race after it in a chase.
Its slipping, I’m holding,
clinging for dear life,
I almost lost it from my grasp
I can’t land in pain and strife.
When will Hashem send me help,
give me a break from all this pain,
I have no more strength to daven every day,
I feel like its all in vain.
Help, I cry out to him in my bed,
I can take absolutely no more,
I’m all worn out, I’m done forever,
Every muscle on me is sore.
I’ve crumbled slowly piece by piece
until I cease to exhist
The urge to kill myself is taking me over
I just can’t seem to resist.
I’m tugged and tugged,
I see the weapon in which i can kill silly me,
and then i think everyone will able
to finally giggle with glee.
no more me to be a burden
no more me to cost the money
then their life will be blissful and great
it will be so bright and sunny.
I dunno I’m so depressed right now
I don’t know what to do,
I’m so stressed out yet I can’t stop,
the teacher’s have no sympathy for you!
Don’t they also have a life,
something besides stupid school?
do they have any challenges to have sensitivity?
why on earth do think we’re just objects
and torturing us is cool?!
Just my vent 🙁 I know its not as good as the others…too bad.