SaysMe, no problem!
Goq, agreed.
s2021, wow, those sure are a mix of emotions. But everyone has those emotions, to a degree. The difference is how we channel those emotions, and how we deal with them. It is all in our grasp to to use them for our benefit, and when we do, marriage can be a truly wonderful thing. May G-d give you the strength to find the way toward a new beginning, and channel every emotion for good.
PE, blabla, how are you both?