syag- thank u for replying. It may be generic but even that i havent heard enough of lately. Its cuz i’m just too hurt and not ready to just forgive it all. At the same time i hurt x too and am not ready o truly ask mechila meaning it, because of the hurt they caused me. And its eating me. True if they knew and realized etc they wouldnt have as much as they did. But some they knew full well n did anyhow. Its really really tough :(. And i’m doing bad overall so makin everything harder n worse.
Though i dont know if i’m really having trouble with forgiving x or with forgiving myself…