Reply To: Going off the Derech

No One Mourns The Wicked- I do love my son, with all my heart. But where is he? As much as I was angry on Shabbos, more than that, I am completely broken from the pain of this. He told me he hates his life, but I am hating mine as well. Yes, I cried all Tisha B’Av, like one who is mourning the destruction of the Temple, bc I am in mourning too! But I also cried on Shabbos. It’s almost impossible to forge a connection with him bc any time I try to talk to him, he screams that he doesn’t want to hear me, and he continues to listen to his music. When the fast was over today, I went and brought him (in his bed) something to drink, bc he fasted. He refused it, saying he doesn’t want it. I am at the point of giving up. My husband reads the whole book of tehillim for him EVERY DAY, and I pray as well. But I’m thinking of stopping everything. For all the time I put in praying for him, things have just gotten much much worse. I feel like I lost..