I know exactly what you’re going through (been there). You’re situation is far from hopeless; believe it or not I’ve seen and heard much worse than what you’re experiencing and it wasn’t too late.
It seems that a lot of your giving to your son had some kind of attachment or condition to it. Remember, we are trying to show UNCONDITIONAL love and like. I’m on my way to shul now but I felt I had to stop and answer.
You need to start being twisted ASAP, B’N after I break my fast I will try to show you how.