Sounds like there’s still more you’re not saying.
Also sounds like you came back on the derech for the wrong reasons. Go off, check out the boys, you don’t like them so you come back on? What happened to “doing it for Hashem”?
Why does this boy seem like the right one for you? Because he’s smart and you find him attractive?
It’s his turn to go on for you?? Since when? He owes you nothing. He is making his own life choices- and bad ones, by the sound of it. You’re the one who’s pining after him. Do you want to risk your frumkeit (and possibly other things, too) for the sake of such a boy?