Life is fair it turns out. Its just terribly hard to see it and feel it when everything seems contrary to that, i agree. But tzadik Hashem bchal drachav vchosid bchol maasav. Daven and ask hashem for help, miracles can happen if u believe. Also beg hashem for emunah and bitachon, it goes a long long way.
sorry for sounding so positive just finally having a good day