Someone mentioned noach lo ladam shelo nivra. When I was younger and had time to contemplate (mothers are constantly constantly distracted) I spent a few days contemplating if I would have been better off being created as the door in my school. After all, it absorbs Torah and can’t do anything wrong. It just stands there and gets pushed open and everyone is happy with it.
Meanwhile us people have the questionably enviable position that every single action we take affects all the worlds above us and also this world. We either cause tremendous damage or bring life force down to the worlds with every action we casually commit. The malachim who are aware of the power of our every action – they shake with fear, but meanwhile were just oblivious. And we have to be oblivious or we wouldn’t move for fear of the destruction we might wreak.
Then we get to face it all Upstairs.
So, maybe I would be better off being a door…
That was my contemplation for several days. If you’re curious I’ll post my conclusion