“Do the lubavichers on this forum finally realize that they have no acceptable responses to our problems with their views? Is that why there is no activity here?”
RSO, yes.
It took over 1800 posts, but you guys have finally gotten through to me. I’ve left 770, I’m currently looking for a place in Lakewood, (if anyone can help, please) and I’ve made slight modifications to the shape of my hat. I’ve bought Tzitzis that aren’t in accordance with the Shulchan Aruch HaRav, and I’ve even switched my trademark Lubavitch Yarmulke to a more mainstream velvet one. I put my Chitas in Sheimos, though, it’s just a Chumra, really Sefer Torah SheKosvo Min should be burned. I asked a Shayla to my new Rov, and he said I should continue wearing Rabbeinu Tams Tefilin until I’m Mattir Neder.
Luckily, I was one of the fortunate few in Chabad to learn Gemara, so I’m not too behind in that field. And I’m attending Hypnosis sessions to attempt to deprogram me from all the brainwashing that I was subjected to.
When I can’t reach my new Rebbi, I open up a Krayna DeIgresa at random, and it’s quite helpful. I’ve tried Orchos Rabbeinu, but it doesn’t have the same effect. And the cherry on top – this Hey Teves (which they brainwashed me in Lubavitch to believe is a special day, and they encourage buying Seforim on that day) I went to Boro Park and bought myself a set of Avi Ezri. I’ve also cut my beard off, but I only shave Erev Shabbos, so I look a little more greasy.
Now that I look back at it, I wasted so many years of my life doing “Mivtzoim” and learning Chassidus. And being Doresh El HaMeisim at the Ohel, I think back now of how many hours I wasted there, believing the the Rebbe was answering my Tefillos. I could’ve finished several Masechtos in that time.
I thank the Ribono Shel Olam for sending me to this thread, so I finally see the light, and I thank all of you, especially Syag and RSO for your perseverance, it was hard, but you stuck to your guns. Yogayta Umatzasa Taamin! (Oops that’s a Chabad reference, but it does come from a Gemara in Megillah so probably okay.)