Cs, with all due respect, you need a reality check. If you think you’re a tzadekes, you’re not. If you think you’re without sin(a beinoni), you’ve probably turned a blind eye to many normal chisronos that you have.
Chabad or not, you’re a regular person with a yatzer hora. You’re not dovid hamelech and neither was your rebbe.
It’s gaavah and dimyonos that’s above most things I’ve seen here.