Bless You- what a beautiful post and user name. Kol Hakavod!
fivestrpharm- I can see that you are truly speaking from the heart and yours words are 100% true. It is an amazing Chizuk to know that you can literally wipe out your past with Teshuva. Yes I heard from a major Talmid Chochom who quoted it from a sefer which I forgot that Teshuva doesn’t mean forgiveness- rather Hashem looks at you as if YOU HAVE NEVER SINNED!!!
Do we really realise the extent of Hashem’s love for us??? This should be drilled into everyone of all ages and may we only be Zoiche to see kids going in the right direction…