Moish01 there are many yeshivas which are not heavy duty nor black hatted nor pressurised. Have you taken a look at something like Ohr Somaech in Jerusalem. There is very little pressure put onto boys. You attend shiurim on your level when you want and they also offer Rabbeim who you can talk to – all educated men who understand exactly your dilemas.
They also offer summer learning programmes for those who want to study but also want to do a stint in yeshiva. This may be an idea for you to look at