Tishah B’Av is a really sad day for me, but these days I have to work on myself to shed tears when I read Megiallas Eichah or kinos because as a mother of kids b”H my mind is focused on different things, not just the churban.
I will try to be more heartbroken about the churban this year and work on myself that the knowledge that the Schinah is golus should be in my thoughts the entire day.
I think that as much as we try to remember the pain and devastation of the days that the two Bais Hamikdosh were destroyed, since it is over two thousand years since the Second Bais Hamikdosh was destroyed, the most powerful way we can envision the destruction as they say in Yiddish oif inser hoit on our own skins is to link what we are saying in Eicha and the kinos to our current world and personal situations.
Eichah yushvah badud, I sit and think about our holy Yerushalyim hair rabasi there are a lot of inhabitents in the city, but um hoysa kalmana she is still like an abandoned almanah .She is LIKE an almanah not AN almanah because her husband will return- the husband is a reference to Hashem. Even in these days with Yerushalayim being a bustling city the Shchinah has abondand us because of our sins, rabusi bgoyim serasi b’mdinos she once was big and respected between the goyim and today hoysu lumum, the world feels that they need to preside over Yerushalyim and dictate to Yerusahlyaim its policies. There are building freezes and opening of borders to dangerous terrorist because of world dictates.