Smartz! i’m in your shoes!!
Get bz bz bz bz bz… do something, anything! volunteer! get a degree, do Something! the worst thing to do is sit around and do nothing!! it hurts hurts hurts! and yes i just attended my very good friends’ second kids voch nacht and i got many many brachos!;) I do have a pile of those
and btw about the birthday.. keep the party small 🙂 it feels much better that way!