You didn’t chase anyone, I desperately need the chizuk to walk away. What you wrote about the meetings is exactly why I end up back again, reading posts. A shiur would require sound and concentration beyond what the posts require. And my kids are on at night so I read over their shoulders. But when I find myself turning on the computer because I am putting off writing a long report, well. . . that’s what I don’t want to be doing. But I really did choose that name hoping it would deter me, and I told my kids my name to deter me further from being on more often than I would allow for them. (I try very hard to always practice what I preach to them, even when nobody but Hashem is looking).
I davened for syata dishmaya just this morning so consider yourself a shaliach for good!!