happiest, where do you live exactly? maybe if ur in a place where its normal that most ppl are married by 20/21, then you feel a pressure. if ur 22, you shouldn’t! where i come from, its not unusual to find girls who are 22 and still not married, but loving life! i mean, of course they have a strong desire to get married, and they are looking, but where i come from, there is no pressure! i was recently talking to a friend of mine from seminary and she told me that six of her hs friends just got engaged within the past two weeks, and now she’s feeling so pressured- gosh, she’s not even 20 yet! this is what the world has come to- not married before 22, so ur an old maid??????? NNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOO! we can’t let that be the mentality.
also, i recently read an article about a girl who was also looking to get married, so on purim, she and her mother left in the middle of the seuda, went to a different room, and they decided this yr they are just not taking no for an answer. They davened very hard, the next yr, this girls chosson was at their purim seuda! well on purim there is an extra power to tefilla, but who says you cant do this any day. just decide that now you will not take no for an answer.
just in case you feel just sitting and saying tehillim, ur tefillos may become dry, here’s a suggestion- get an ipod or cd player with all ur favorite chuppa tunes/slow wedding songs that you want played at ur wedding, or just songs that u know make you a little emotional, and listen to it while saying the tehillim.
hatzlacha! may we hear good news very soon! don’t take no for an answer!
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