Are you accusing ME of ignoring you?? Not entirely sure you want me responding to anything ‘postworthy’ you write.
P.S. Liven up (a drop). We all feel like that one time or other. Some people are social geniuses. They’re popular on contact. Others, well, just don’t make it. Yep, I’m one of them, (actually the leader!) So what? We have to do Ratzon HaShem, we’re not here for popular votes. Actually, at times it’s a bit easier not to be bogged down with social pressures.