Adorable, I disagree with Sac, honestly forget about the past. Today is a new day and you have learned something about yourself. Hold on to that and keep working on your connection with Hashem and your emunah and bitachon will get stronger. Honestly, Hashem has entrusted the most secretive of all mitzvos to women. We are the ones who he trusts to know and understand that we always stand before Hashem and he is watching us. Therefore our mitzvos are “private”. We are the keepers of the future. We are the Mothers of the Nation because Hashem trusts US. So honey no matter what it was close the curtain on it and shut the door. Do whatever is necessary to not only not go back there literally but figuratively. Stop thinking about what you did and stop worrying about it. Say to Hashem “Chatati, salach li, I learned not to do it and I know better now. Dai v’kayam!”
Instead of worrying about what you did wrong that hurt no one but yourself, think about what you can do right. OK? Have a positive attitude, thank Hashem for his blessings and the ones he bestowed upon you, and go out and do mitzvos with happiness and joy. My bracha to you is that you should always enjoy the mitzva of doing mitzvos and with each mitzva you should grow stronger in both emunah and bitachon as you get closer to Hashem.