” your past! “
You’re kidding, right? You cannot have a “past”, not in the terms that the street normally thinks of.
OK, we’re going in circles. Try this:
Take a look at some of the mussar seforim. They will help you turn your “past” (however dreadful) into something positive, and give you a fresh start.
If that doesn’t do the trick, Yom Kippur is only a few months away. Who knows? You might even be going to shul with your new, white leather set of machzorim. Talk about a fresh start!
Relax. We old folks have been down this trail before.