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Those are very serious and important questions.
If you are currently taking medication, I assume you have a MD with a degree in psychiatry perscribing them – that’s who you should be asking, especially about meds and doses.
Speak to him about your concern that this site is acting as a trigger. If it is, then abstaining from it is probably a good idea. Even if you have to stay away, folks here will keep you in mind and gladly welcome you back when you are IY”H up to returning.