Mother in Israel – there’s not much more to be said than what the other posters have already said. Mazel Tov on your new addition. May you have lots of nachas from all your children. Remember you are not the only one to experience these feelings. It’s normal. It will go away. If you’re really worried, talk to your doctor. But given everything you said – having a baby 9 days ago, getting pneumonia, etc. I think it’s a normal reaction. Also accept any help offered to you – even ask for help. You do need your rest for your own sake as well as that of your family.
My first child was colicky – I was up 24/7 for the first few weeks. It was exhausting. Of course I cried – cuz i was so tired and weak. But i always kept in mind what a blessing it was to have a beautiful healthy child. Now my kids are grown – and Baruch Hashem they are wonderful. We now look forward to the next stage – weddings, grandchildren etc IY”H.
So – just remember – Gam Zeh Yaavor – the crying and feeling sick, I mean – The nachas should continue Ad Meah V’esrim.
Whenever you feel badly – just come to the cr so ur friends here can give you emotional support. It will help! (after all, this advise comes from someone from the LES – you know how great that is, your husband is from there) 🙂