Happiest, I went through a phase when I couldn’t bring myself to daven either, for similar reasons (Anger, frustration, abused,..). But the truth is, it didn’t make me feel any better, and my life didn’t get any better because of it. I also knew that Judaism is correct, and that Hashem is the only real G-d, and whether or not I understand or agree with Him and His methods, it shouldn’t prevent me from “talking” to Him about things. Which is when I started davening again. At that point, I didn’t really daven all the prayers, I just said things that I felt inside and just feeling a connection to G-d through talking to Him made me feel better. If it’s too hard to say Modeh Ani, or any other “standardized” prayer, just try talking to G-d in your own words. Make any connection you can, and hopefully, you’ll have a deeper appreciation for prayer after a little while.
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