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PrincessEagle: Okay, here goes. Care to share some of yours?

I wrote this to a friend who has an eating disorder, plus other issues with Yiddishkeit (she’s on her way to recovery now, b”h). I wrote it to her after I realized that she was having a rough time. But for various reasons, never actually sent it.

Dearest Rivky:

It’s right now 1:40 a.m., and I’m really tired, but I know I won’t fall asleep. Your face is still fresh in my mind. Tonight, at the party, you looked…well, sad.

First of all, I want you to know that you’re NOT alone, okay? Lots of girls our age are going through what we are. I would love to guide and help you, but I’m going through a rough time myself. It’s so, so hard. I know. Believe me, I do.

Rivky, ask Hashem for help. I know it may sound weird to you, but no matter where you are, or what you’ve done, Hashem loves you! He’ll answer your Tefilos. Just beg from the bottom of your heart that He should guide and help you.

Secondly, you have to talk to someone. There are lots of people out there who can help. If you feel uncomfortable talking to a stranger, try talking to Mrs. ______(a mechaneches). I went to her – she’s really smart and open-minded. If you’d rather talk to someone else, I can give you Rabbi ________’s (someone who’s doing ‘kiruv krovim’)phone number. You wouldn’t have to introduce yourself. He’s heard every question you can possibly ask, and has amazing answers.

Everyone has questions at some point in there life. We’re lucky to have them now, at this age – without a husband or children to care for. We can deal with it in peace.

Also, remember: daven, daven and daven. I will, too. And don’t EVER feel alone. I know you feel like it’s not your type to be depressed and anxious. You know what? It’s not mine, either. But Hashem put us in this situation for a reason. He wants us to grow stronger, be more compassionate to others, work on our middos and that we should become better people.

You’ll see – we’ll come out of this real soon. Everything will work out just fine. Mark my word.

Love,