Reply To: Want to know the difference between us and them?

wow. thanks guys. I actually was ashamed after having posted my last write/thoughts. BTguy i think You are my best friend i ever met in the CR! Just knowing some other “head” out there has been there too, and found Hashem, and is saying what you said about :

“This is my view and is not meant to be pushed on anyone, but in my view, I never second guess what I am doing nor do I second guess my life experiences. They are all valid, meaningful, with many cherished experiences.”

I always feel like I am carrying around this strange mole on my back or badge of “dishonor” no body else bears. Nobody else in my community knows what it feels like to live in a Tee Pee in the wild, sit in the sunlight like you are one with Hashem, bathe in rivers, and do Hisbodedus in Forests playing a little native american wooden flute to Hashem. I am just so different!

Its not bad. It was bashert I found Hashem like the Bal Shem Tov, (he use to sit in the forest doing this)minus the tee pee and river part. My parents were hippy, they went to the beach boy and Dead concerts. I thought we were normal.

Anyways, I am sorry I did all that. I wish I could have just found Hashem the normal way. If there ever was one.