Itzik,
I’ve always said you’re a smart person and I still believe it. It’s the ones that have so much knowledge that ultimately have so many more questions. But there are answers! YOU KNOW IT. So- why don’t you attempt to get the answers from an APPROPRIATE party. This discussion in the CR… sounds like a cop out. You know very well that we do not have all the answers. Perhaps some of us have very good answers to a lot of your questions- but this is not the place and (once again) you know that very well.
DON’T GIVE UP. PLEASE.
It’s Ellul, Hashem is so close, he is waiting to hear from you- at least try one more time.
You don’t want to hear this, but Hashem did not give up on us. (yes, THAT Hashem- you know, the one that created the world, that created YOU… that created good and “bad”… that created science… that created everything in a way so that it looks like TEVA…)
If there is any truth, it is that Hashem did not give up on us. I can’t stress this enough.
And of all the people, I don’t need to tell YOU all this.
Hold strong- YOU ARE NOT GONE. You will always be a PRECIOUS Jew (you can still swallow that). The fact that you still debate is proof of this.
I don’t think my words will change you in any way, but you know they are true. That’s not up for debate.
I will be davening for you, Itzik.
Your absence in the CR is a gaping hole- Klal Yisroel can feel it too.
Moreover, Hashem is here for all of us including YOU- WHENEVER WE NEED.
– areivim