soliek: I was very moved reading your post.
I truly believe that there is a very special place reserved for people like you. People that have gone through the unthinkable (from a young age) and emerge not just “in one piece” but somehow find the courage and the sympathy needed to help others who remind you day in and day out of the very tough battle you yourself overcame. It’s hard to conceive where you draw your inspiration from.
It is commendable that you remain so sensitive to other’s feelings and want to protect the whole world. I don’t know how you have the strength to go fight day after day without just giving up. You’ve taken the fight of all troubled people and made it your own. You fight for their feelings with your own. You fight for their dignity with your own. In short, you identify closely with such people very emotionally.
I just want to remind you of one thing. You need to verify stories and characters before you invest so much energy. DF, or rather Suri, is not someone who’s worth the fight. Save your energy for all the others who truly cannot help themselves.
(P.S. Nobody ever said anything about being angry. I just wanted to point out that she ended up exactly where she wanted to and used enough people to get there. If those people feel violated, I would totally understand them.)
Thanks for your inspiration.
Hatzlocha on all your future endeavors and may we hear of an end to all Tzaros.