kapusta- thanks!!! happens to be the second teacher i talked about in the first post is my current teacher now, and she like the other one just dropped me, and started with another girl! dont think i drove them away! I just would talk with them in the hallway or in a classroom for 2 or 3 minuets, it was little but what i badly needed at that time!!! I think i am just to afraid to try to connect to a teacher in fear of being rejected again!!!
I do love yiddeshkeit, and being a by girl( look at username 🙂 ) I am not going of even chalila thinking of going otd, especially after seeing how it hurts my parents and others( my brother is currently otd) I just dont feel that I quite understand my current place in life(i know no teens do i mean diff,..) with things going on I just feel alone!