i also felt (still a little) the same way. one of my siblings is OTD and i felt jealous of my sibling sometimes, my sibling was always out with friends and having fun etc… it seemed that my sibling had a better/funner life than me, and i am a frum by girl and school was hard then and then i was having a little social problem b”H im not any more and my sibling was having a fun life i was the ‘good’ one and i was having a harder life. one of my teachers in school said that even tho it seems they have a funner life they really don’t and i dont know i guess i just pulled thru b”H even tho sometimes i still think about it, im a little bit better now closer to Hashem (usually)
wow felt good to vend 😉
p.s i always read the cr i finally made an acc a few months ago but never posted now this i decided to maybe youll b seeing me a arnd sometimes now 😉