ye im in mesivta…our situations are lil bit different but not really. in my case i have a reason for being so attached because my life at this point is VERY DIFFICULT. not the type that im making up problems… i got to know this rebbe this year and he is the reason im surviving! i tell him all the time that im so thankful i have him etc. without this rebbe i would feel like a ghost and a nobody. he gives me some meaning to life and i respect him more than anyone in the world. that is why its so hard to break off because breaking off means going back to a world of more than necessary pain! and ur right about people not realizing what im going thru! totally true!! i dont speak to him that often like have a lengthy conversation( happens prob 2x a month maybe) but i often see him in the hall and will ask him a quick something thats on my mind or he’ll ask me how im doing… do u think thats so bad? cuz u make it sound like i MUST break off immediately but that to me wud mean killing me completely!
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