As the daughter, sister, and mother of chanzzanim, I can tell you one thing. You need to always check with the rov of the Shul in which you take a position, to see what the SHUL minhag is. Never mind your own minhagim. If your strong feeling is to daven one way or another, then you can obviously only take a position in a Shul that shares your particular vision.
When you daven for the Omud, you are the shaliach tzibur, with the emphasis being on the tzibur. Your own hashkafa is secondary to theirs, assuming their hashkafa is in line with halacha. When Eliezer was the shaliach for Avraham Avinu and was mekadeish Rivka on behalf of Yitzchak, he had to put his own desires aside, and do what was the will of the person he was representing. Think about that for the moment, and I am sure you will come to a reasonable conclusion about what you need to do, and what you can accept doing.