My wife and I have been through this Parsha for many years. Baruch Hashem, at this point, we have two wonderful children. I know the pain and heartache oh so well.
There is a wonderful organization called ATIME. They have a website and an online support forum. Please check it out. You will find thread after thread of discussion, information, and chizuk.
Hatzlacha Rabbah in this painful but sacred avodas hakodesh.