You bring up valid points, and there is a hereditary component to CERTAIN types of depression (but not all). Nonetheless, if Klal Yisroel did not stop having children even though Pharaoh was throwing the boys into the Nile, you should not think of yourself as WRONG for having children some day, BE”H. With Hashem’s help, they could and WILL be healthy, normal children. To alleviate some of your fears, why don’t you speak a) to a Rov for guidance and b) to a doctor who specializes in mental health issues and the drugs which you need to take and who is knowledgeable about the hereditary aspect. Hatzlacha rabbah in finding your basherte.
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