You are not God but you have God in you.
Honestly, Im just a teen myself, and this is probably way above me to be answering these type of questions, but I have had discussions with people about these things so I was just trying to share some of what I had learned. However I really suggest asking these questions to a teacher you respect, or to get in contact with someone like Chevi Garfinkel or Rabbi Mechanic who would be able to give you the right answers (unlike here in the CR where you don’t know whos giving you answers…)