I guess Lakewood001 knows something we don’t?
Hey maybe s/he’s god! Maybe we should all go bow down to his sapling and pray and dance 100 times (signifying each of it’s rings)around that darn thing?
Truthfully, If you question why don’t you ask a competent Rabbi who can advice on what you should do.
It seems you are wavering and doubtful in your belief.
Please don’t delude yourself that help in Judaism can come off the internet.
I heard the Yeshiva Neve Zion has an amazing Rabbi “The Mash”, Rabbi Solomon, R’Milstein, R’Wallerstein, R’Klatko, R’Skaist. and I’m sure there are others who guide all Jews with their scholarship.