k everyone let me tell you that I am absolutely no Malach! I am a very normal, fun, regular Baiy yakov girl that works on being positive and happy 🙂 Trust me I have my times too when I am not so happy but I really work hard to minimize them. I will say that I probably wasnt always this way (although being happy is part of my nature) and I think that diabetes has made me into a much more positive person. You have to look for the good and then you see it. The thing that makes you strong is really davening and being able to SPEAK to Hashem and tell Him how you feel and just ask him to run your life in the best way possible for you bec only He knows what the best way is!!
(maybe when i wrote tmy last post I was in a very very good mood but definitely shidduchim is the hardest! I admit!!)