Just keep beleiving and find someone to help (Aish, Chabad) they both have websites, so you can look it up. There also are lots of hotlines for pretty much any situation, probobly there is one for people like you where someone can encourage you and start to teach you more. You can try googling it, I dont know much seeing Ive been religous since I was very young and Im only a teen, not very known in these things yet!
Hatzlacha Raba (Lots of luck!)