Oh my gosh, thank you so much Shopping and streekgeek! You’re both the sweetest things!!! I am going through some pretty insane things right now… Your support means a lot to me. With Hashem’s help, things will eventually get better, though not anytime in the forseeable future. BH for the cr to keep me sane! Look, at least I showed Hashem that I care about my relationship with Him enough that I was prepared to give the cr up for it! But right now, it looks like my test is no longer emuna in Hashem because w.o my belief that there is a point to all this pain and I will get paid back someday, I wouldn’t survive and so I’m not going to be doubting Hashem now.
BTW- Shopping, aren’t you still a teen in school? I am, and btw I’m 15. School is sooooo insane these days! I get home at like 6:30! Not exaggerating! Oh well, if only that would be the hardest thing in my life right now. To all the normal teens out there- PLEASE appreciate your normal lives!