“There is a story about Reb Yaakov Kaminesky, that someone handed him a freshly printed Sefer in the street. He didn’t need it and dropped it in the sewer. When the one he was conversing with was surprised, Reb Yaakov told him that it only gets Kedusha when you learn from it. This Sefer was just printed.”
That seems very strange…
I wouldn’t throw any kind of book in a sewer like that, especially not a sefer. It’s disrespectful in the extreme to both the author and the subject matter. I highly doubt that story is correct, at least not with the barebone facts you’ve given.
Wolf,
something can be burdensome without being a burden. Something can provide (usually temporary) discomfort without you classifying it as a burden.
Would you consider your children burdens? They might indeed sometimes place a burden on family finances, your time and/or patience etc., but overall, I highly doubt you would classify them as an overall burden. (correct me if I’m wrong).
In the same fashion, not wanting to carry an extra sefer with you does not mean that you consider Tohra to be a Burden. You may consider small aspects of the process of learning Tohra (such as carrying around a heavy sefer) slightly burdensome, but overall you wouldn’t consider Tohra to be a burden. this is especially true when you consider that “Tohra” does not just refer to the actual sefer you happen to be carrying as well-it’s a large metaphysical concept that can extend from a simple chumash to the overall concept of the Tohra.
In conclusion, I would say what you felt was perfectly normal, understandable, definitely not something to be upset about (though I’ve never found much success in telling someone not to be upset about something that they already regret), and certainly not indicative that you find “Tohra” to be a burden.