Reply To: How do I contact Rabbi Bablul the mekubal?

You are looking for a cheap way out, and I don’t mean financially. You need to daven, and on a different level, someone who understands you with whom you can speak. That might be a former teacher, a rebbetzin, a rov, or, likely, a therapist. I wish you much hatzlochah, but I reiterate that you’re approaching your issue(s) the wrong way.