im sorry if i misunderstood you but in your last post you wrote “im feeling realy down.i have so many problems besides for social anxiety which basicaly means im always self consios al the time!.i always have a self esteem which doesnt exist no confidence no friends.so many social and emntional problems.”
that sounds pretty intense. so either your making it sound more serious then it is, or your in denial of the seriousness of the matter. i am not you and dont know your true situation but sometimes your brain cant work naturally because its lacks in certain neurotransmitters. im not telling you what to do nor judging for the choices you make. in fact i sincerely empathize with you becuase ive been there. i am not a therapist but i am a therapist’s daughter and chances are if you keep cycling into this “monthly depression”, he/she will probably refer you to someone to prescribe you something anyway.