What does learning halacha have to do with “personal expression?”
It’s what HaLeiVi referred to as “?? ???? ???”.
If you don’t like the way your yeshiva learns, find a different one.
Do you know of many yeshivish for younger bochurim which focus on Halacha? I don’t.
My issue with the OP is the contention that he was a masmid, but couldn’t find time for ?”?, ????, and ??????. Granted, Halacha seder in most yeshivish is short (and not as well attended as other sedorim), but there is a bekius Seder, and for someone who learns night seder and bein hasedorim, plenty of time for extra limudim.