anonymisss thats what I’m here for 🙂 (squeak, I think I just took you over) but keep smiling, it cant hurt :):):):):)
Time heals all wounds, hope yours works itself out real soon and you have a relaxing shabbos and you can recharge your batteries. can I suggest another trip to Israel, goes together with smiling; cant hurt.
ok, I do really hope that things brighten up, just know that Hashem is holding your hand right now and only giving you what you can handle, He knows you better than you know yourself and Hes hurting with you, and waiting for the second when everything will be all better, He wants it even more than you do. I give you my sincere bracha that you clearly see yad Hashem in this and recognize the good through it all and that you see everything turning out for the best 🙂
take it easy 🙂