ames- AMEN! Thanks! That was beautiful and very touching. It’s always a Chizzuk to know people understand and care.
Also, Chas V’shalom I’m not jealous or down at all. It’s more that I don’t feel anything at all. I don’t know if that makes sense but as I said before I will try to work on it. Thanks for your idea of thinking about Aharon Hakohen. It makes a lot of sense and will definitely try it.