don’t feel bad queen, im wrong for being jealous and every pesach i revisit this emotion. Totally my problem, not yours.
regarding the food – stressed?! the food isn’t stressing me, listening to people tell me how close it is to pesach and how far behind i am is what stresses me. my house looks like this every sunday. and after any random simcha. we have been collecting and redistributing food from others for decades, as my mother did for decades before me.
I can handle the mess and craziness (kinda fun sometimes) but before pesach people remind me how much work i have left to do and how little time i have to do it and that scares me. The joke is, i don’t approve of spring cleaning for pesach or living chametz-free for weeks. The cleaning that we do is per the guidance of Rav Schienberg zt”l and i am not envious of people who have crews and teams scrubbing their bathroom tiles and repainting their dens. I am actually sorry for them that that is what pesach has become in their lives. (i am jealous that they *have* a den, however. that and a playroom are on my wishlist)
having pans everywhere is a priviledge that Hashem has granted my family and i wouldn’t trade it for anything. i just wish people who come to pick food up wouldnt say things like, “I don’t know how you are going to make pesach”
(ps, and a bar mitzvah on chol hamoed)