It is mamesh hashgacha pratis that I found this. I am not a fan of YWN I just came to check Corona news. I went to coffee room and l saw the title being ger and bt, and me being a ger I found it interesting. I had a similar situation to you. I was going through very difficult life situations and was depressed like never before. I am only a ger over a decade and have learned quite a lot of Torah. I don’t consider myself a talmid chacham. I have learned in yeshiva and kolel and even up to getting depressed I still learned quite a lot a day.
I just want to say that through my research I have never found a jew who was learned in Judaism and then left to become a Christian. The catholic channel has a whole lot of videos of Jews who became catholic and.guess what , they were all from secular backs.and knew nothing about their own Judaism. There is also an Eastern Orthodox priest who was a secular Jew. No one who learned many years in yeshiva.
With my experience I have read some of the new testament it is written so poorly. No one who is familiar with learning Torah could lehavdil trade it for this chicken scratch.
You were hurt emotionally and therefore you went back to Catholicism, not that you truly believe in JC or believe in the NT. Hashem had mercy on you and closed the church so you could not get your communion. I understand where you are coming from. Please feel free for any questions